Yesterday was the anniversary of my miracle—exactly a year from the phone call that changed my life. Today is a year from the actual meeting where I unexpectedly found myself sitting, talking, and looking into the eyes of the most incredible soul I have ever encountered in my whole existence, feeling the intoxicating light, energy, and love that was radiating out of her.

I have been on my spiritual path my whole life. For an INFJ Heyoka and one of the 144, this life felt more like hell for most of it. I went through so many Dark Nights in my life, each time shedding more aspects of my conditioned, programmed human vessel, growing, expanding, and learning to see beyond the veil of forgetfulness and return to my true essence of being.

However, meeting my twin was the most potent, profound, world-rocking, life-changing, mind-blowing, soul-shocking, serendipitous, magical, unexplainable, transformative, and Divine moment I’ve ever experienced on this journey.

It launched me on an episode of my spiritual becoming like no other. For the first six months, I was flying. I felt how it felt to be whole. I felt so connected to everything, to everyone, to nature, to love, the Universe, Spirit. I never used to say God. I was having a hard time saying it. I honestly found my way back to God after meeting my beloved twin. For six months, I knew Samadi, and most of all, I felt her. I could feel her in my energy, in my heart; I could hear her in my head, and I felt a love I had never felt before—a different kind of love, an eternal, unconditional love towards her.

I didn’t know her at all, and I wasn’t looking for anything (I was in a 12-year karmic, cold, toxic, energy-sucking marriage. For ten years, I only stayed for the sake of my daughter).

I didn’t know her last name for the first five months. She told me her last name, but that was the only thing I couldn’t remember from that night. I remember everything: every word she said, every brief touch, every breath she took, that hug; we hugged before we said “Hi” to each other. And I wouldn’t be able to describe what I saw when I looked into her eyes even if I tried; that was out of this world, that was Divine. But I couldn’t remember her last name.

We did communicate from time to time, and the energetic and telepathic connection was out of this world. Communication became less frequent after about three months, and the separation started in September. I could always, and still to this day, feel her energy around me, her emotions, and her thoughts.

I didn’t have a Facebook or Instagram page to follow. All I had was her phone number and a picture from her WhatsApp.

Only after five months did I hear her energy asking me to find her. So, for the first time, I tried googling her phone number, not expecting to find anything unusual; I was hoping for a Facebook or Instagram account.

OMG, I was so wrong. I figured out who my twin was; I was speechless for the first time since I met her. It turns out my twin is a big deal. She told me what she does but didn’t tell me she is the top at what she does. And to tell you the truth, I was very intimidated at first.

After that came the darkest, most excruciating Dark Night I have ever had to go through. The Universe, Spirit, God, really took its time to wipe the floor with me this time. There was so much pain, fear, doubts, childhood wounds, self-worth issues, anger, frustration, and rage; it was excruciating. My whole world was falling apart; it seemed like I had no control over anything that was happening, and I couldn’t understand why, for my life, while it was all happening, all I could think about was her.

I lost my way, my path, and, at the end of it, the will to live. I was ten minutes from ending it all.

But when I got up from the floor, I was different. I got up stronger and calmer. I knew what I needed to do!

I started returning to myself, regaining my power, and aligning my energy again. I grounded myself, worked through my shadows, challenged my guides and my faith, paid the price, and learned valuable lessons. The more I looked inside and did the work on myself, the more balanced the third energy became (It’s where we and our twins are already united. That is what we mean by saying, “separation is just an illusion”).

I started emerging back to the world with a strong sense of direction, purpose, and calling to be of service. That is how I ended up talking to you, beautiful soul, offering my help, insights I got along the way, and the wisdom and guidance being channeled through me from the Divine.

I thought the last two days would be more challenging, but I am proud to say they weren’t. Of course, I miss my twin. I even thought about reaching out again to thank her. I wouldn’t be here writing these words or doing anything I’m doing now if it wasn’t for her. If I did, it would have been the right energy; no ego was involved, only love, appreciation, and gratitude; no expectations, no conflict, no push energy whatsoever, but I made it without reaching out. I am just happy for her existence in my world, no matter what capacity it is. I just want her to be happy.

Instead, I concentrated on myself and did the things I liked to do. I played my drums, cooked myself a fantastic dinner (I love to cook!!!), I walked in the woods and practiced my spiritual practices and meditations. When I did think about my twin, all I could feel was love, peace, warmth, a sense of home, and gratitude.

We did have an incredible out-of-body experience together last night, though. We have been together as we have been many times during the year. She confirmed it when it came up in our conversations. I know, for a fact, that she is feeling this connection on her side.

I know I am on the right path because she showed up on my TV again this week. I can’t believe I saw her, that I heard her voice. Her voice is like a drug to me. I recognized her energy from the first time she said “Hello” to me over the phone.

It is the second time she has done that. The last time she showed up sitting court-side at a basketball game, I had in the background at the same time that I was actually writing her a letter. I picked up my head from my laptop, and there she was; one of the opposite team’s players fell right in front of her. The camera was literally on my twin. I took a picture just to prove to myself it actually happened 😄.

All I can do is send her unconditional love, support, and healing energies, as I have done every day since we met, and live in joyous anticipation of a reunion while immersing myself in service of the greater good of everything and everyone. That is what it means to surrender to the journey; That is its true purpose.

When I think about my twin, I always think about this song:
Peter Gabriel – In Your Eyes

Thank you, again, for letting me share my journey, experiences, insights, and wisdom with you guys. I hope it helps and supports you on your own journeys. I love you all!!!

I send you all healing energies, angel blessings, love, and light.

Aho!